This has been in the back of my mind since 12:30 pm today, and I am going to burst, if I don't unload my mood. I apologize in advance for this post...it's a downer.
Today during lunch time, I was sitting among people I know from another office at work. We were kind of trying to fill time, because we were waiting for another person to rejoin us so we could continue with our listening to our friend play her cello, while we sang Christmas carols. I take it that most of them did not know she was a cellist. I knew, because I knew this was her true life's passion.
During this down time, my cellist friend started mentioning about all of these wonderful discoveries she'd recently made about some of our colleagues and co-workers. She shared the fact that out of the people in the room, she'd just learned that one person used to be a history teacher before she gained her position she currently has, another was a state champion badminton player, and another was a champion tennis player.
Then she turns to me, and asks me to tell everyone in the room something about myself. If I were white, I would have been as red as a rotten tomato. I could not think of anything to say. So to save me, she volunteers that I can make beautiful jewelry....I felt SO stupid!
Actually, there is NOTHING spectacular about me or any of my life's contributions. I even doubt my abilities to be a good mother and wife on some days...plus that is just an ordinary achievement. Just about everyone in the room was a parent....and I am sure they all consider themselves to be good parents and spouses.
I had to leave not too soon after that, so her question gave me something to reflect upon...what have I done with my life? Nothing. How has my life benefitted the world, society, my community, or even my neighborhood? Yeah, right.... Just as I thought. It has not....not one bit.
What can God do with my life? I dunno. It's up to Him at this point. As Rudolph the Reindeer just sang, "Why am I just such a misfit? I am not just a nitwit." But now I really feel like it.
As Clarice (the girl reindeer that Rudolph liked), sang, "There's always tomorrow for dreams to come true, tomorrow is not far away...."
Hmm...maybe even one day for me.
:-(
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Ok, so I'll try posting this again. Remember the movie, "It's A Wonderful Life"? If you haven't seen it, the character George Bailey gets to view life, as if he had never been born. Of course everything was different because he wasn't there. He touched people and the course of history just by being alive. I think this is a 'must see' for you, or even a 'must see again' if you've seen it.
Whether or not you do ONE thing that is great in the eyes of the WORLD, you are spectacular because you are LJ, a CHILD OF THE LIVING GOD! There is nothing that we can ever do in life that will impress God, other than accepting his Son, Jesus Christ. God lives his life in and through us, and it's only what HE does that is eternal. As humans, we could win all kinds of awards, etc., but what do they mean in light of eternity? Who cares what Joe Blow thinks of us?
No more of this negative self talk. You are a wonderful, spectacular, beautiful, sensitive, awesome child of God. It doesn't get much better than being the daughter of the King of Kings.
I love you.............just the way you are.
Lucy
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